strange
the lights are too bright
head aches,
heart slams against chest,
hands are balloons.
room full of strangers
shadows of faces
faces of fear
come and go
strain, tension.
the people brush past
moving slow, dream-like,
you sit nearby, plaid & blue
left unaware –
my mind is such a silent place.
P A N I C
suddenly crashing in
smothers me until i cry out in terror & my insides convulse
throws me into oceans of excruciating pain
heart trembles, aches
hate hate hate
ugly & stupid failure
foolish & useless child
unlovable & undeserving mess-up
hate hate hate.
unescapable, overwhelming hurt
pounding through me
fingertips dig deep into palms
it is here –
oceans of it.
the lights are too bright
head aches,
heart slams against chest,
hands are balloons.
room full of strangers
shadows of faces
faces of fear
come and go
strain, tension.
the people brush past
moving slow, dream-like,
you sit nearby, plaid & blue
left unaware –
my mind is such a silent place.
P A N I C
suddenly crashing in
smothers me until i cry out in terror & my insides convulse
throws me into oceans of excruciating pain
heart trembles, aches
hate hate hate
ugly & stupid failure
foolish & useless child
unlovable & undeserving mess-up
hate hate hate.
unescapable, overwhelming hurt
pounding through me
fingertips dig deep into palms
it is here –
oceans of it.
/ passing of time
every breath an uncertainty,
stumbling alone through the fog
numbed by the suffering
& disassociated from the weight that dizzied me –
i have been anesthetized by hurt.
exhaustion.
stumbling alone through the fog
numbed by the suffering
& disassociated from the weight that dizzied me –
i have been anesthetized by hurt.
exhaustion.
Wow. Umm . . . you just literally hit those feelings square on the head. ;) Wow. No words.
ReplyDeletesophie xx
lavender and blue
the inkpot girl
Thanks Sophia. xx
DeleteThe emotions are all too real
ReplyDeleteWonderful words, as usual :)
Thank you Prelude-- I appreciate that.
DeleteWow, you phrased this perfectly.
ReplyDeleteThank you Grace Anne!
Deletenice job. you captured the confusing terrifying experience perfectly. <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Ava!
Deletethis is actually perfect. yes. I love it.
ReplyDeleteWow... thank you so much Faith!
DeleteWow, you wrote this perfectly! You're an amazing writer!
ReplyDelete-Jollygirl @ Reflections of a Jolly Girl
Thank you Jollygirl. I appreciate that.
DeleteThis is just overwhelming. I felt like I was you....ugh, this is way too much to even be described in words.
ReplyDeleteWell done,
Amelia xxx
<3
Thank you for your sweet words Amelia!!
DeleteWOW. You perfectly captivated the feeling of a panic attack and you captivated me into it too! This is written beautifully!
ReplyDeleteLjoy xo